I had a very interesting conversation with a girl who I will call Rachel, the other day and spilt the beans about our life style.
Rachel was telling me about a friend of hers who just lost her father and needs help as she turns to self harm. Both Rachel and her friend have the same thing in common, their form of self harm is cutting. I had known that she did this before which worried me no end, yet never asked what she achieved out of it. When she explained about the high she gets, I said that's the endorphins.
Being quite concerned for Rachel's welfare, I said there are other ways to feel that high the endorphins give you. DING DONG alarm bells went off, why have you opened you big mouth Lindy, stupid woman! I knew what the next question was before Rachel verbalised it.
"So what do you do for the endorphin highs?"
Even though she couldn't see me, my face was burning with embarrassment. I thought do I lie or tell her the truth. I took the second option telling her the truth about our life style. We had a long discussion during which she asked "So like in outlander with the spanking episode?"
Yep exactly was my reply. I wish I could have seen Rachel's face to see how she was taking the news. I wanted to take back my words but it was too late for that, it was all out in the open. She declared she knew there was something kinky going on in our retirement, just didn't know what. Oops! What have I done opening up a can of worms like this.
Our conversation went on a bit longer with me explaining things and suggesting she try it for herself, rather than doing something dangerous like cutting. I think I gave her a bit of 'Food for thought'. I ended with saying VANILLA IS SO BORING, you need some KINK in YOUR life, then left it at that.
I expected further questions since this but nothing more has come from it. So I don't know if Rachel is willing to give our life style a go to see if it suits her or she thinks I'm totally nuts. So do you think I did the right thing in telling her, or should I have lied?
Enjoy your week everyone.
Hugs Lindy xx