Tuesday 18 August 2015

AUGUST CURSE

 My family really hates August.  Every year we say we take a deep breath on the 31st July and release it on 1st September.  The reason being is because it seems to be the month where most family members decided to grow their wings and go to heaven.

My mum died on 12th August, 1978 a month after Bear and I were engaged. This was so hard going through our wedding and having  babies without my Mum to support me.  I am the youngest in the family, so she saw all my siblings married and their children born.  I felt deprived.

Then my Dad died when I was pregnant with my last baby after being in hospital for a few months.  This was torture. Seeing I was pregnant I was not allowed to see him as they thought he had something contagious. When he finally was given the all clear,  I made arrangements to visit him with my eldest children, I received  the dreaded phone call to say he died that morning.  Great timing Dad! Anyway it took me years to actually believe he was not coming back as I kept expecting him to visit me.

Four years ago we thought we had made it through August and were ready to breath our collective sighs, when Bears mum died on the 31st from Alzheimers disease.  We knew she was going down hill rapidly but hoped she would make it through August.

Mind you all my children's partners have birthdays in August, so maybe this makes up for it.  Also Bear retired two years ago on 16th August, which we celebrated with a candle lit dinner the other night.

Unfortunately I am yet again waiting for the dreaded phone call about my brother.  Just hoping he can hold out for a while longer, although the poor guy is suffering so much.  He was diagnosed with prostate cancer way back in 2004 and has fought a really hard battle with ups and downs ever since.   It has now gone right through his body and he has certainly endured more than he deserves.

So at the moment I am totally stressed worrying about my brother.  I asked Bear the other day for a stress relief spanking when he came into the lounge room to sit with me. He didn't have any implements with him unfortunately.  So although the spanking was starting to make me feel relaxed it was over way too quickly.  He complained his hand was hurting. Boohoo! So I suggested getting an  implement but he wouldn't.
Have you ever had one of those spankings where you would have loved it to go a while longer?

12 comments:

  1. Very often Lindy. Sorry about your brother, I know how you feel - it's hell watching someone suffer so. My heart goes out to you and your family.

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    1. Thank you Sunny. We have made it more than half way through August now. Hoping for a miracle that he can fight his cancer once again.
      Lindy x

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  2. hi Lindy, oh I am sorry to hear of your sad news, my thoughts are with you and your family. And yes, this morning in fact I wanted more and there was no time :(. I am just greedy
    Love Jan,xx

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    1. No you are not greedy Jan. It feels good to get into the moment, then its over way too soon. Thank you for your kind thoughts. No news is good news, so they say. Hoping for a miracle.
      Lindy x

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  3. All this and August is the depths of the winter blues. Occasionally raining, always cold and dark, totally an unpleasant time.

    But this too will pass and September with its promise of renewal is only 2 weeks away....hang in there until then.

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    1. Thanks Don. Yes it has been a very chilly winter this year and were we are it rains constantly. I love spring. so can't wait for the 1st September and all the pretty flowers. Already seeing lots of new lambs in the fields which is great.
      Thanks for your encouragement.
      Lindy x

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  4. Lindy, I'm so sorry that your brother is so sick. It's so hard to watch someone you love going through all that. My mother passed away in August too, but it was time and it was a blessing for her at the time. Doesn't make me miss her any less thought.

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    1. Thanks PK it is always hard watching a loved one slowly going down hill. We are praying for a miracle but he has been through so much. Almost to the end of August. fingers crossed. The new Cassie book will lift my spirits, can't wait to read it.
      Lindy x

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  5. Oh Lindy, sounds as though August is a very mixed and difficult month. I'm so sorry to hear about your brother. It is so very hard watching a loved one suffer. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

    Spankings have ended sooner than I would have liked on a number of occasions.

    ((Hugs))
    Roz

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    1. Thanks Roz, it is so hard seeing someone close going down hill. Just wish he didn't have to suffer.
      Lindy x

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  6. Sometimes brothers don't get the mention they should when we think about how important family is to us. My brother was my best friend when we were young, and we share so many memories. I am deeply sorry that your brother is so sick. Maybe it would be a good time to spend with him and remember all those special times between you.

    Sending Hugs Downunder,
    Ella

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    1. Thanks Ella, yes I'm remembering all the good times. Life is not fair sometimes.
      Lindy x

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